cloudy waters washing over me
In Afrikaans there is a wonderful phrase "troebel waters" ..... cloudy, murky, turbulent ..... those are the waters I find myself in this week. Unchartered waters - I feel like a lone person in a lifeboat being whacked from one side to the other by wave after wave after wave after wave of not entirely getting stuff right. I have always been a strong swimmer - a direct description of a person who can take the multitude of days that come your way .... great, mediocre or just downright crappy. This week I have felt stuck in doggy paddling - two steps forward .... then 9 to the right and 109 backwards. Everyone seems to have a theory about why I am so uncertain, so confidence-less (yes I know that is not a word) - Sadly not one of them have it right. Mainly because no-one has actually asked in depth. And by asking you have to accept my answer. And listen. And not judge. I have walked the road flat across to the Adoration Chapel where I h...